Desires Vs. Expectations

Life has been so busy since we got Jabber Jane! It seems like I've just been running off my feet most of the time. I have to admit that I have had some difficulty hanging on to my goals, finding my motivation. I found myself "cheating" a little here and there. Saying to myself that I have just been having a bad day and I'm going to have an extra piece of pizza, or a glass of coke, or 3 or 4 cheesy bread stick. WHOA, hold on! What am I doing to myself????

I found a site called Peertrainer.com and started reading articles about how to get started and the pitfalls, and why a lot of people don't succeed with weightloss. Or why it's not permanent.
One of them talked about desires vs. expectations. And that no matter what we desire, we will make our expectations a reality. WOW! So if I expect to fail in 10 or 20 more pounds I WILL! But if what I expect is that, yes I will have some not so good days, but I will start each day new and always give my best effort to follow my plan. I will exercise discipline when I need to (more often than not). And I WILL meet my goal!

Then I read about setting our goal to begin with, finding what we really want. I've toyed with the idea of adjusting my goal a little for quite some time. I haven't because I just couldn't wrap my mind around the idea of it being possible...That is ridiculous. I pulled 145 out of thin air, and at first all I did was have that number in huge letters sit on my fridge where I could see it. I got used to it. So the question became, what do I really want? And what do I believe I can do? Do I believe in myself, and my drive and discipline enough to really go for it? Or am I going to stop at the point of too scared to go any further? NO WAY! My new goal is 130, that is adding an extra 15 lbs of loss to my goal. Instead of 68.2 lbs to lose from my starting point, it's 83.2! And I got this! 14.2 lbs lost in 12 weeks, I have 69 lbs to go! I am excited, a little nervous, and definitely recommitted to myself. It's not about being committed to losing weight, the heart of the matter is how committed I am to me! What do I believe I deserve? I don't think so little of myself, that I am going to keep myself obese and unhealthy. And I'm not going to sit right on the edge between overweight, and healthy either. Nope, I am going to sit right there in the middle of wonderful! Where I belong! I owe it to myself.
What do you owe to yourself?